Why?

Why am I awake this late, looking up, wondering ,
why hours before dawn this cloudy sky has a reddish hue?
Is it the moon, the stars, the backyard light reflected by the snow?

I do not know.

Three days from now I will be sixty,
 much happier than when I turned fifty, more in love
than when I was twenty.

My heart is light, burdens unloaded,
filled with You, love, peace and joy.
Sharing to the wounded,
 to You and everyone , even to Yuki,  more so with Loy.

Is it You within me,
or me within You?

Why am I here?
You alone knows,
am happy to know.

To be with You,
to be loved forever,
when I am no more.